A Suicidal Thought

National Suicide Prevention Week Reflection. I will not pretend that I am an expert on mental health. Also, I will not simply show symbolic support for suicide prevention. Other than researching, there is only a few things I can do. One of them is sharing my own experience with a suicidal thought. While preparing for […]

Bookish Life of Nina Hill: Book Review

Nina and Nikki: the same.  I must be honest: I feel personally attacked by this book written beautifully by Abbi Waxman. In the Bookish Life of Nina Hill, Nina lives a simple, yet anxious, life. Because her single-mom is a traveling photographer, Nina was raised by her wonderful nanny. Throughout the book, the reader becomes […]

Not My Fault You Can’t Say It Right

Srivastava = Shree-vas-ta-va Respect. That’s all any of us want. Sure there is love, companionship, dogs and chocolate. But, respect is different from those things. It allows one to walk down the street without getting sexually harassed, threatened, and/or killed. Respect gives one confidence, joy, and happiness. Actually, fuck that. I think we all want […]

A Huge Leap of Faith

Nothing falls into place, you have to work constantly. In mid-April I found out that I would be moving to Alamosa, Colorado. And, I was expected to start working in June. (Oh boy.) I felt overwhelmed with joy then consumed with anxiety. My sister said being an adult is basically “taking huge leaps of faith […]

It’s Okay, I Am Not Okay Too

Mental Health Awareness. Hi, my dear readers. I wanted to take a moment to say that’s it’s okay to: not be okay, to be okay, not be fine, and to be fine. You’re not alone when tiny things trigger intense emotional reactions. And, these reactions feel like an emotional overload where stress, anxiety, fear and […]

Wait, why is that funny?

I believe I have a personality that belongs on network television. As you all should know by now, I am my favorite person. I simply adore myself. Not in like a narcissistic, can’t-see-my-faults way. But, more like a damn-I-am-proud-of-myself way. As Demi Lovato sings, “what’s wrong with being confident,” I too find myself asking this […]

Self-Care: More Than a Catchy Instagram Hashtag

As Lizzo sings in Good as Hell: Woo child, tired of the bullshitGo on dust your shoulders off, keep it movingYes Lord, tryna get some new shitIn there, swimwear, going to the pool shitCome now, come dry your eyesYou know you a star, you can touch the skyI know that it’s hard but you have […]

Welcome to the Nikita Initiative

Hello Internet, My name is Nikita Srivastava. I am an Indian woman who carries herself with the confidence of a heterosexual white male. Now, I don’t intentionally act like a white man. It kinda just happened. Apparently, if a woman demonstrates confidence in her abilities, intellect and strives for success, then she is acting like […]